A Dream which was so Real

Last night i had a dream... And it felt so real that i could wake up shouting....Yes you! Why would you wanna come into my dreams? WHY?! Do you know that i do not welcome you into my dreams? Do you know i have hated you, your name & everything about you? If it wasn't because of you influencing my loved one. I wouldn't have hate you this much! Perhaps you wouldn't know that i hate you these much! But i really WISH you REALLY KNOW!
I hate hearing your name, hate seeing your car at any place where i go & hate anything about you!
If you do not exist, my loved one wouldn't be so closed to you! (Perhaps you both should become Gay)??! No doubt, my hubby is not that easy to be influenced & no doubt my hubby has nothing got to do with my hatred on you, I still cannot forget & let go what happen last year. But i choose to close one eye!

Well here's what i wanna say to you..... How I wish you really read this..(No offense to anyone else besides this idiot).

1. You said you will be sitting my hubby's bike only for 2 months...But hello! Now it's already 4 months! If you have no money to buy ur own bike, do not change ur JOB & follow ppl! Just stay in your own shell first or go back to tap rubber at your hometown!

2. Why do you need to trouble other ppl when you yourself cannot afford it?

3. Why do you need to call my hubby everytime?? Call your wife and talk lah (Fuck)

4. Don't think by telling my hubby that the COE is high la, that is high la & all the fucking crap, my hubby will sympathize you as a friend....But to me you are shameless! ( This is my blog, and i'm here to  say it out loud) I dun care wat other ppl cares or feels about me. But as i know you have done wrong so please own up your mistakes! Not to me but to that " someone " else...

5. I wish that you can stay away from my hubby as far as possible... I do not wish to hear anything about you! Just feel that you are not fit to be a guy! Coward ! Just a fucking asshole~

6. Now i noe you dare not come to close to us. (And i hope you can go away as far as possible)

7. If you noe what humanity is all about, then you should noe what to do. It's already 4 months...i ain't gonna say anything but watch all the dramas running thru..U may wanna take up till 1 year?? Ok go ahead! Your life is at risk & may god bless you!

8. Selling your house to stay in Sg? You must be kidding me. STFU.

Anyway, i just hope you would stay away from us! And i hope u won't give us any trouble anymore.
or else I WILL NOT LET YOU OFF!

Updates for 2014

What??! It's been 2 years since i log in here to blogged...

Suddenly i had the urged to blog and so i am here to update a little on my life.

Well, life has been going on fine so far. There are ups and downs. But life is always like a rollercoaster!  True. Even though i am going thru a very tired & emotional thing in my heart which i really hate that "someone"now.. It's a He! No, and of course it's not my husband nor my family member. 

I really hate this "someone" for spoiling my life! I WISH U DEATH! Really, i've been like cursing him!! You influenced my love one. Do you know it sucks when You said it all and feels like you are the winner??! Fuck~ i don't give a damn to person like you! I wish you LUCK! And i will sit back, lay back, relax and watch everything that is gonna happen & perhaps someone up there would be watching  over too! Everything will comes back in Circle! I really do hope so if anything again that happens & makes my life miserable again. YOU!! Watch out! What you have done, God knows it all. 

#GODISWATCHINGOVEREVERYTHING

My February

I'm back blogging here...It's been a few weeks since i really had the time to sit down & blog. Hrmmm, well, as my previous post was about CNY and yeah here's some updates about it. CNY was great this year. It was a very long holiday for me and i'm very happy that me & my dear spent time together.. And time flies super fast!! Parents are also back from Vietnam. Glad they enjoyed their holidays there. And thanks mummy for the bag u bought me from there. i like it! Was super happy that i've met dear's parents & my dear has met my parents. All is well & stable. :) I'm glad. No objections.

Anyway, so fast january is gone...and it's february...coming in to march! So february, Valentine's day??!
Yes, few days back was Valentine's day. And this year, i'm very happy that me & my dear celebrated Valentine's day together. It was indeed a very nice & memorable one for us.

We actually had our valentine's day dinner on 12/2 Sunday. My dear brought me to George & Dragon Cafe at Taman tasek. i love the ambience & the food there. Thanks dear for the dinner. I hope you like the chocolates & the gift i bought for u.

Here, i would like to say Thank you dear for the surprise u gave me on Valentine's day.

  Thanks for this beautiful bouquet of flowers. i love it! :)

Me & the beautiful blue roses from dear!

This is all for my february updates. More to come...:) tata...

GONG XI FA CAI!

HEY everyone! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! May this Dragon year brings Good health, happiness, joy, peace & may everything goes on smoothly for all. :)

Well, it's a bit late posting this. Haha yeah, have been busy celebrating the New Year..Especially New year's eve...*sweats* busy & rushing for this and that. And now my dear is not back yet but TONIGHT he's coming back!! YAY!!!! :D

Miss him so much~~

Okay, will update more again when i'm free .... Tata *Runs to collect more ang pows!*

CNY around the corner

It's 2 more working days!! And tomoro i can jump like there's no tomorrow! Hehe. Well, i've done my CNY shopping for the past 2 weeks. It looks enough, but i feel like it's not enough...But have to stop! Anyway, i wanna thank my dear for accompanying me to do all my shopping patiently. Feel happy having him by my side. Really feels great doing shopping together. Want to say thanks too for bringing me to the car accessories shop to get my brake locks done for my car after that traumatic incident.

Soon in a few days time, i noe i will feel very sad :( Because my dear have to balik kampung, and i no kampung to balik. So for a few days i cannot get to see him! :( I HATE THAT FEELING, but i noe I WILL LOVE THE FEELING when he's back! And i seriously can't wait for tat moment...

I hope this CNY holidays & long leave, i get to really rest & build up everything that need to be done. Parent's are going to Vietnam end of this month....So i gotta do everything myself..

Unlucky but Lucky

10th January 2012, it was "shopping night" out with my best friend Gwen. After work, i drove to town to meet up with her, then took our dinner and we head to KSL to do some CNY shopping....She didn't buy anything except me. I bought a Dress and a bra. After shopping i drove back from town. I put the dress which is in a "shopping bag"(not plastic bag) given by MNA (the shop i bought it from) on the left passenger's seat infront while my handbag on the handbreaks which is in the middle.. I was at a traffic light at johor jaya about 10 plus at nite nearly reaching home. A motor (2 guys), the one sitting behind opened my car door and snatched my shopping bag which contains my dress & bra. Then i shouted. And maybe he felt the bag was light. He look into it and found out it was not valuable things, he throw the bag, back into my car. At that moment, i was in the state of SHOCK, do not know what to do but to keep pressing my horn....Guess it was because another motor was coming behind, he had to faster ride off..So he didn't manage to get anything nor hurt me. I was trembling till my hands and legs were shaking. All i wanted to do was to drive home quickly. As i reached home got into my house, saw my parents, couldn't even say wat happen bcos i was already so shocked. All i did was burst into tears! was so shocked until i cried....Then slowly told them about wat had happen.. Mum saw that i was already very pale. She went to the kitchen and get me a cup of water. And after tat, i was better. But didn't even sleep well. It was like a NIGHTMARE to me.

It was a very scary incident that happened to me. A very traumatic experience. I hope to all of you out there. Please lock your cars whenever u are in the car. Please be careful & be aware of your surroundings as festive season is around the corner. DO NOT LET THESE IDIOTS HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO MAKE YOU ONE OF THEIR VICTIMS!

No doubt i'm unlucky but still lucky to be fine. I seriously have to thank God so much that He has protected me that i was not hurt. And eventually my valuable belongings (Handphones, purse, cash$$$, Cards, IC, driving license) are still with me. And "FUNNIEST" part, my dress which cost RM79.00 & bra is thrown back to me. THANK YOU DEAR LORD JESUS CHRIST for all your protection.

"God is my shield and my strength I put my trust in him
He is my protector, His shadow watches over me
I will rest in it
I am covered in God's wings, my refuge is in his wings"
Psalm 91

The first weekend of the year

Did some of my CNY shopping during sunday with my dear. Everywhere is SALE % SALE % ~  Bought another dress & a belt for it to match! Very happy with it. :) Seriously days are passing so fast. 2weeks more to CNY! Excited?? Happy?? Nervous?? Worried?? I really don't know. Total of mixed feelings actually. Excited & happy that CNY it's time for happiness and the one whole week my dear will be accompanying me. Nervous because it's gonna be "meet the parents" soon for both sides! *Sweats*  And worried would there be any objections (but i know there won't be any).

Hoping for everything to be smooth...

:) :) :)

Wheeee! It's Friday!! Yeah, yesterday was a little havoc here and there with work...Stupid !@#$%^&* Bitch from my company driving me nuts!! Anyway, i am not gonna write wat happen cos it's a so damn long story..... And i do not wanna write about it that will waste my breath & time! Anyway, the good point here is that the more angry she is the more happy i am :D *EVIL SMILE* No doubt i felt angry and was so fed up with this & that which happened and wanted to give up at times. But luckily i still have people around me who cares & supports me. The one who made me stay strong is my mum & my dear. I know for the sake of you guys, i'll be strong & patient.

What cheers me up now is that i've got my BONUS!! It's 1 Month's bonus! :D Have been waiting for this day to come!! Yeah, now i can go shopping with my lovely friend & my beloved dear!! :D Feels Great!
And i've also receive a letter about my salary increment with effect from 1st Jan. "Double happiness"..!

Once again, thank you my dear for being there for me when i needed you. Thanks for all the support & love you've given me. Without you listening to a radio like me, i think i would be so miserable. :)

First post of the Year 2012

TODAY, the first post of the year, first day of work of the year, first day of all new things of the NEW YEAR 2012! HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012 to all!! Since New Year's day was yesterday, and since i had so much fun & enjoyed my lovely day and had no time to blog yesterday, so i had to blog it today.

Anyway, 31st dec's night i was at my dear's place counting down together. :) and yesterday the first day of the year, i had a really good time with my dear. We spend our time together, since morning after getting his new "Son"~ he fetched me from my house. I admit i was really scared sitting behind him. All i do was Hug him real tight & close my eyes. I was like so "jakun" and felt so HAPPY cos i get to sit on his new "son". It feels great! And i felt like a kid!! Oh yeah~ We wore our Smurf T-shirt too!! In the evening, we went for movies. We watched Jack & Jill. It was hilarious! Haha but nothing can beat Johnny English a.k.a (Mr Bean).

I felt so happy yesterday that i even can't believe that i'm smiling. All the problems & unhappy things were totally out of my mind. I didn't even realize it. All i do was to enjoy that moment. It was just a great day! I hope that my new year's resolution & wishes will all come true! I just need to know how to smile :) But seeing my loved ones and people around me smile will make me smile too.

*Waiting for bonus this coming week so i could shop till i drop! 3 weeks to CNY! HURRY! i can't wait! excited leh* 

2011- THE END

It's the last day of work for me of Year 2011! While ushering to the New Year 2012, here i would like to share & do a short "look back" of the year. The year for me in the beginning was not very good, but as months pass by, it became smoother till the very end. The most terrible thing for me this year was my wisdom tooth surgery. I guess it's the first so called surgery i did in my entire life. Moreover health isn't that smooth as i always fall sick easily.. As for work, it has it's up & down. So i can partially say it is just okay overall. As for other things, this year has been a good year for me as i get to travel abit here n there & go for holidays as i have been wanting to do it before in the past. I loved to travel! So i would like to take this opportunity while i am young! :) Besides that, the greatest thing this year is that i have someone who stood by me and has given me love, care, support, and has never given up on me. That's my Dear! His patience towards me really has made me love him so much. All i can say is that i am quite a hot tempered person. But still he could have the patience and never give up on me. Anyway, i would like to thank God for everything he has given me. Overall, my year 2011 was okay. :) Hoping that Year 2012 will be a better year for me.

GOODBYE 2011, WELCOME 2012!!

My 2011 Christmas

I know it's late but not too late to say: MERRY X'MAS!!!! Hehe. Anyway, i did had a wonderful weekend & christmas this year. On 24th, the eve of x'mas i met up with Gwen in the morning to give her a christmas gift. Chatted happily as we didn't meet up for a month plus. I got back home in the noon, i did my ironing & cleaning. During the nite, i went over to my Dear's place. Brought over some Popiah which my mum made for him to eat.

On 25th Christmas Day, went to church in the morning with my family. Had a good time. After church we went to my aunt's place and had lunch outside with them.. Reach home around 2pm. Afterthat, i spend the rest of my day with my beloved boy. We went shopping. Guess what, this time he bought so many things like a super shopping king!! HAHA. For dinner we had fried Oysters (Oh chien) at sri tebrau.. :D Yum yum! i want to have it again!

Well, and for 26th which is also a public holiday, spend the whole day with my beloved boy too. We wanted to go watch Jack & Jill at Jusco Tebrau City. We went there and OMIGOD! It was a super long queue!! From inside too outside....So we decided to go Today's mall as we feel that today's mall cinema's couple seat is much more comfortable. So we head over there but there's no Jack & Jill movie for that day. So Dear said to watch Mission Impossible Ghost Protocol. Hrmmm, during the show, i regret for not bringing my jacket or wat so ever. It was freaking cold in there! Regretted for even wearing shorts! I WAS SHIVERING!!!! And you noe wat was the best part?? I FELL ASLEEP during the show....I actually don't quite like to watch action movies except transformers that time. So i fell asleep in his arms. Perhaps i was also tired as the nite b4 i slept at 4.30am! :( He said i snored! I said "WHERE GOT"! He said i snored like a little pig. Oink Oink! >.<
After movie, we went shopping again. Bought some things to prepare for CNY..After shopping, we went all the way to setia indah to have dinner! i was craving for Satay. So dear brought me to eat! Hrmmm, guess i have already put on weight this few days! He has been feeding me with good food! We love foodies and we enjoy our meal together everytime..

Had a great time this X'mas..OKOK, let me count down of how many working days more to CNY!! It's another 17 working days more to CNY!

Here's my dear & me wearing our Couple T-shirts together..

We also bought another "The Smurfs" Couple T-Shirts when we went shopping.

21/12/2011 (A Wednesday night to remember)

21/12/2011, a very happy & touching day for me. My Dear called me after he got back from work. And at that time i was out at the wake. So i told him i'll be home soon as it was almost 11pm. He told me he'll call me in a while. So as i reached home, i called him first to say i'm home. Found out that he was driving, i asked him where is he. He told me on the way to my house. He said he wants to pass me something. So i went outside when he reached. It was so surprise that he came with an early Christmas gift for me. I was totally speechless and all i could remember that moment i was only smiling broadly and i said to dear "why didn't u tell me u go out & came over"..He said he wanted to surprise me. I even asked him why can't you wait until the day of christmas it's self then you hand over the gift to me. He just said that being early is better. Afterthat, he asked me to get back inside the house to open the gift and see if i like it as he drove back home. I SMILED like.....errr....i dunno how to say la..all i noe is that i couldn't stop my mouth from smiling. I got back in.. Mum ask me "Wat's that?.."

Then i walk back into my room, opened the gift & the lovely card. I read the card first. It was his first card to me. It was so touching. As i read, tears started flowing down my cheeks. I felt the sincere from him. I felt so touched. No doubt it was not a long letter, but all the things he wrote and what he has done has really touched my heart. And when dear got home, he called me. Asking me if i like the gift? I told him i really like it & Thank you very much my Dear!! And i will always keep the lovely card as that's the first card he gave me. After chatting with dear on the phone, i texted him to thanked him. With his reply "Hope you can feel the truth that i do, is for you only dear lao po." Again my heart melted. THANK YOU Dear for all the things you've done. I do cherish you & i have never regret having you in my life. You are the best gift from god to me. Wo hui hao hao de zhen xi ni! Love you forever!! Hope that we'll spend our lovely time together this christmas! :D

Let's get the photos to cheers!! :D 

The surprise gift he got me for christmas this year! :D Love it!

It's actually a musical X'mas hat that plays..."hohoho, Merry X'mas!and then with (Jingle bell song) & a Happy new year!!

Haha! isn't it cute?!

A lovely card from dear. Hen gan dong. :)

Thank you my dear for EVERYTHING!! LOVE YOU ALWAYS & FOREVER TOO!

It's not late

Deepest condolence to my bro-in-law & family for the lost of his father on tuesday. It is a sudden death for his father as he only went to the hospital on monday morning for kidney dialysis. He fainted there and was unconscious. After that it is believe that he is brain dead. He could only be alive with the help of all the machines & oxygens. He took his last breath on tuesday and was taken to heaven in the arms of god. Yesterday my parents & i attended the wake at night as it was the last nite to pay our respects there. Today is his funeral. Hope he is in heaven watching from above. May he rest in peace. RIP.

"Everything is in god's hand. We really do not know what will happen the very next minute. Life is indeed fragile"

This whole week, i've learnt alot from "death". It has taught me about "life" alot. I've learnt to live life to the fullest. And i've learnt to cherish the ones beside me more. I've learnt to let go alot of things. I've learnt to be more open minded with a positive mind.

Just like from my previous post about reading Mcleen's blog that was so heart wrenching. From there, i've learnt alot too. :) To whom that reads my blog, hope you can also visit her blog too.

5 days Before Christmas!

It's 5 days more to CHRISTMAS! and will also be ushering to the New year 2012!

Hrmmm, what have i done during the weekends?

Merrily i just did my washing & cleaning that has been stacked up on saturday and sunday went to catch Alvin & the chipmunks 3! Well, love Theodore(the chubby one) the most!! So chubby & cute!! Awwww! can i have a chipmunk like that too for x'mas this year?? 

Guess what? Yesterday, suddenly me and bf was talking about WWE!!! 

LOL!! and he was like so shock that i know so much about that WWE!! 

Girls cannot watch WWE?? who say? i'm one of them la... :)

Yea, last time when i think i was younger i used to watch it and was so crazy over it man~

LOL but now as time goes by, i can't watch that TOO MUCH liao...i need to be more "Feminine" ya know for the sake that i'm a girl... *Cheers*

Well, i suddenly google to search for something, and from no where i got into this blog site: http://mcleen.blogspot.com/ which has been so heart wrenching after reading.
I spend hours reading her blog. And her blog really did made me cried.
Her blog teaches me alot about LIFE & also to CHERISH my loved ones even more.
And especially i learnt to love my DEAR with a caring heart, and cherish him n the moments being together.
Yes, it is true i can't live without him too. I wonder if i put my leg into that blogger's shoes. I think i will feel miserable too.
I salute her for being strong. As everything is in the hands of God.

#imissyouverymuchmydeardazhu!!#

10 Days to Christmas!

It's 10 Days more to Christmas!! *Santa claus is coming to town* 

Love to hear those christmas songs!! i got one that's stuck in my head....

Christmas is the time of Joy & happiness. That's why i like it~~ LIKE IT! :D

Anyway, i received a X'mas card from my friend christine...Hehe i mean i didn't receive cards for ages though!

I used to write cards and send them to friends but now err...nope...no more..We FB! LOL! That's what most ppl in this 21st Century do.

Anyway, i really appreciate getting cards! It has it's own meaning. AND I DO NOT THROW IT AWAY...alrite.

Ok, and for now i am just waiting for fat SANTA to be slim! Ngehehehe..

This is suppose for me & my dear to understand! :D

Ok..ok let the pics do the talking alrite :)

An early X'mas card from christine..

well wishes..:]

Think i gotta clear my office desk!! It's Messy!!

AHHH!! That's me with my new hair! Had it done on saturday at the salon for 6 FREAKING HOURS! My butt hurts!

Errr....Dear's mother bought this little mini x'mas tree...LOL!

Ok, and this is what we prepare for our X'mas this year! Gonna wear our couple tee together!! :D

Combining some pics together when i'm bored....Tee hee...miss those times we went for our holiday!

I wanna go again!! :)

And lastly, this is my ulcer on my upper left mouth!! It HURTS so badly!!

i had to use watermelon frost...... :(

love u my dear!! #HUGS#